Given the gift of life, so obviously at the hands of God, and I completely get derailed. This derailment has turned into yet even another blessing. It took away the remaining “give a darn” of what others may think. If I do not speak up now then what is the point of the miracle I received. There is nothing to hide. Life is a mess and beautiful at the same time. Might as well do this publicly.

Brain Detox = Spiritual Clean-up

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Misnomer

Health & Spiritual Coaches have to have their stuff together or they are not worth their salt. We are all on the same journey, called life. Our spiritual walk always contains growth until the day we die. Only when we think we have arrived at all the answers, are we not worth our salt.

How This Works

I will do my 21-Day Brain Detox in the privacy of my home and on my computer with as little thought as possible that I am also then turning around and making this public. Each day I will do my Brain Detox Journaling then cut and paste it here on this blog.

I will remove any names that I may put in my personal Brain Detox Journaling. I will remove anything that is identifying. There is no intent in my public display here to become a way to call others out. Glorifying God gets lost when I make sure others know who did what …..

Let’s get started on a new path.

Day 1: 25 April 2018

Introduction: Thanksgiving, Praise and Worship exercise

SONG: It Is Well (LIVE) – Kristene DiMarco | Bethel Worship

I won’t be getting all the words to the song correct, because that is not the point here. The point is to lean into a deeper relationship with my Lord and Savior. The point is to let praise and worship music reach places in my heart that are so hardened, that only the Holy Spirit can reach.

“Grander earth has quaked before, moved by the sound of his voice, seas that are shaken and stirred, are calmed and broken for my regard.” 

I might not have those very first words in the song perfectly correct, but the depth of meaning remains. You Lord certainly are “Grander earth.” You certainly have made your voice heard loud and clear that you want life for me, not death. You had to stir and shake the seas to make that happen ten days ago, but the fact that you chose it, for my sake is beyond human comprehension.

“This mountain that is in front of me will be thrown in the midst of the sea.”

There truly is a mountain of physical issues in front of me. Am I going to trust in you or am I going to keep that mountain in sight?? I will stand aside and watch you cast the mountain into the sea, because you love me and it glorifies you.

“The waves and wind still know his name.”

Trust in you Lord, not what I see in my life. Certainly not what I see in the emotions I sometimes experience or the actions of others. Let it go. Those waves of MY emotions and the wind is OTHERS hot air, both of which will be always know your name and bow to you one way or another.

“Through it all, my eyes are on you. Through it all it is well with me. Because of who he is.”

Well, the last few days I have been an utter failure at this. My eyes have not been on you Lord, they have been on my pain which in reality, you are the only one who can heal.

“It is well with my soul.”

Okay, I am back in your lap Lord. I will stop fighting you like I have the last few days. It actually feels well deep inside my soul knowing that I am safely in your arms again. Thank you for not letting go. Thank you for your promise to never let go.

“…and now nothing they have imagined they can do will be impossible for them.” ~ Genesis 11:6 AMP

Lord, only you can sort this out and line me up with your word. You alone stand above the yuck and muck of this wold.

Step 1: Gather

 “We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” ~ 2 Corinthians 10:5 NIV

Gather my thoughts, oh my. They have been going at the speed of light the last few days. Focusing on this brain detox exercise will be a miracle in itself. God does not do small miracles so I will be able to do this.

Gather my thoughts:

• I am pitiful for having gotten so sidetracked the last few days.
• Others are pitiful for their unbelievable actions.
• Neither of those are of any importance, yet I let them both completely rule my life for the last few days instead of bowing at his feet in utter gratitude for giving me life when I was dead, both physically and emotionally. My heart had literally hardened more than I have the right to allow.
• I will NOT let this go on. I will humble myself to you Lord and ask forgiveness and ask you to hold on tight to me while I feel your love again. I have felt your presence, always, but I have hurt so bad that I have not felt your love the last few days and that is destroying me.

Step 2: Focused Reflection

My toxic thought is abandonment.

It is not even a rational thought when I think out what you have done for me and for all of mankind. You showed us all that you will never abandon us by your ultimate sacrifice. When I focus on the absolute promise that you will not abandon me, the sting of abandonment issues subsides. I am asking you to completely wash them away. I am so done with the pain of abandonment when I have you to fill that void in my life.

Scientifically, I can take these thoughts and change them. Those thoughts are malleable, bendable. Lord you have allowed us to scientifically have the ability to change our thoughts, thank you.

I have fed this toxic thought by the choices I have made instead of trusting you Lord. Everything inside of me has known better all along. I have never fully trusted you to allow the abandonment as your permission to rise above, move away from it all.

Step 3: Journal

Faith is believing in something unseen. So, if I believe in you, Jesus Christ, as my Lord and savior that I cannot touch in the physical, why can’t I believe that you will deliver me from the bondage of abandonment? Logically there is no sense in my thinking. It is like standing on the fence and saying I can have it two ways; slave to abandonment and free in Christ at the same time. Wow, that is messed up. Show me the way when I cannot see it.

Step 4: Revisit

So, I get the part of how messed up my abandonment issues are, how do you want me to proceed? I will let it go, trusting you will show me how and when at each step. During moments of clarity I have experienced this before. Help me reach this again.

A huge step in this is the desire to let it go. I can say I want to let it go but when my actions are as nutty as they have been the last few days, I truly have not let it go because my actions do not match my desire, which is rooted in you.

Step 5: Active Reach

Decision:

STOP, just stop attacking others in anger. It is justified anger. It is more than a reasonable reaction, in the flesh. As a Christian I “should” not live in the flesh. There are times and places to express anger, you even did that Lord. This is not the time and place. I can tell because it is eating me alive.

I will stop attacking others for their actions or their lack of actions.

Action:

Since the attacks start with my swearing under my breath, then out loud, then declaring war on the world, I need to catch this when I hear in my mind the swear words starting. That is the best place, for today, for me to stop; replace the cursing with blessings.

If at the moment I refuse to be like you Lord and cannot come up with a blessing, then I simply don’t curse. How simple is that!!! My emotions certainly go there 7 times a day, so it will be easy to catch myself 7 times today on this one to reroute my thinking.

Lord help me because this will only be done by your power, not mine.

Whaaaahoooo, Blessing to ALL of you,

Maribeth Baxter, MBEC (Certified Mind-Body Coach)

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